Nie Huaisang,
I hope you will look back fondly on the hours we spent with each other just like I won't forget the cheer and care you have given me. Love is a dream that I will always be too jaded to dream, but playing pretend for a little was meaningful in its own ways.
I will reminisce in quiet nights and hope that beyond the horizon, you are thriving.

Your hard-earned kindness, your vengeful side, the part of you that knows how to play the game so well it is disconcerting to yourself... Care for them and lead your sect as only you could. And maybe you will find a man who can give you the romantic fantasy that you long for in the long term. Someone who can love you, for whatever that word truly means.

I will never begrudge you finding happiness.

But I am glad it was me who was your first. That I could give you this without pretenses, that you would take it from me even knowing that it was a benevolent charade. To think that I could make someone smile so brightly...

You were truly radiant.
I will remember your smile whenever I hear birdsong.


With all my fondness,

McGillis Fareed