[ McGillis can't quite decide how he feels about Alexei's survival. He's held onto his vote until the last moment and he's not certain he made the right call regardless of that. Not morally right just... right, for his own sense of what that means.
And either way, what is done is done and their own input ended up mattering fairly little in it. The end result of it is simply that Alexei will live and Raven will die. They'll all have to make their peace with it.
Alexei, from the look of things, would have a rather hard time with that.
And that's why McGillis finds himself knocking on his door late that night even though he knows he is not the most comforting person per se. ]
[Alexei, at the very least, doesn't seem entirely opposed to company. He also sees no reason to tell McGillis in particular to leave; when he opens the door, he surprisingly isn't lacking in composure. He seems...perhaps strangely fine, and from the look of the room he isn't taking all of this out on his surroundings, either. Everything seems almost aggressively put-together, honestly.]
[ McGillis isn't surprised to find Alexei in a state of superficial calm. He's always struck him as a person who values being in control of his emotions and people's perception of his emotions. Like recognizes like, in that regard. ]
I came to ask you that same question. After all that happened, I wanted to check up on you. And I'm sorry the vote turned out this way.
[ McGillis will forgive how awkward Alexei is being here, the man clearly had a long long day. ]
Don't mind if I do then.
[ McGillis is glad to come inside and keep an eye on Alexei for a little. ]
We've been here so many weeks and all wishes continue to be very far away... It would be nice if getting close counted for something because this truly was a frustrating 'almost'.
[ It is starting to sound to McGillis like Alexei has been searching for a way to die in place of somebody else for many years now. He's not sure what to think of that.
But something Alexei had shouted in the trial comes to mind. ]
It sounded like you saved his life once already.
[ Maybe more than saved, considering their conversation earlier this week. ]
Letting somebody die who you're indebted to might be difficult. Though personally I'd say that honoring your wishes is the best way to repay a debt.
[ McGillis suspected something like this but hearing it still makes his eyes go wide for a second. ]
I am honestly impressed. I have tried the impossible before, not on my own but with my team of researchers. Even with a man only on the brink of death our technology could not reconstruct him to seem like an ordinary human anymore.
The black box you might have seen attached to my back is a smaller version of the same technology I used for that.
But then... why was it ill-advised? By all accounts, Raven seemed full of life.
...I admit that I was curious about the box, but it seemed in poor taste to ask.
[That, and it would have turned into a game of twenty questions because he wouldn't have wanted to leave well enough alone.]
Either way, what I did was a physiological success. Psychological, far less so. "Raven" is a facade he constructed to infiltrate the guild union for me. He acted like someone else entirely around me, and I had to build that out of nothing.
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Week 5 - After Trial
And either way, what is done is done and their own input ended up mattering fairly little in it. The end result of it is simply that Alexei will live and Raven will die. They'll all have to make their peace with it.
Alexei, from the look of things, would have a rather hard time with that.
And that's why McGillis finds himself knocking on his door late that night even though he knows he is not the most comforting person per se. ]
It's McGillis.
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...Was there something you needed?
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I came to ask you that same question. After all that happened, I wanted to check up on you. And I'm sorry the vote turned out this way.
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You have nothing to be sorry for. I did what I could. If it wasn't enough then so be it.
[Story of his fucking life, really.]
You're welcome to come in if you like. I hardly mind.
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Don't mind if I do then.
[ McGillis is glad to come inside and keep an eye on Alexei for a little. ]
We've been here so many weeks and all wishes continue to be very far away... It would be nice if getting close counted for something because this truly was a frustrating 'almost'.
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[Raven allowed Tenn to check him over again. Alexei doesn't understand why, outside of perhaps that.
Maybe he'll ask him for his reasoning down in the dungeons later. Maybe he won't. It depends on how the night goes.]
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But something Alexei had shouted in the trial comes to mind. ]
It sounded like you saved his life once already.
[ Maybe more than saved, considering their conversation earlier this week. ]
Letting somebody die who you're indebted to might be difficult. Though personally I'd say that honoring your wishes is the best way to repay a debt.
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[He's quiet for a moment; he seems...agitated, in some way.]
We discussed raising the dead a few days ago. Why it's ill-advised. I think it's ill-advised because I know what happens in my world when you do it.
[...Yeah.]
Everyone died in that battle I told you about. The one time I asked the Goddess to intercede for me.
She didn't hear me. So I did something about it myself. Raven...
There was enough to save, with Raven. So I created something, there on the battlefield, and I used it to revive him.
I'm...very good. With devices and mechanical things.
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I am honestly impressed. I have tried the impossible before, not on my own but with my team of researchers. Even with a man only on the brink of death our technology could not reconstruct him to seem like an ordinary human anymore.
The black box you might have seen attached to my back is a smaller version of the same technology I used for that.
But then... why was it ill-advised? By all accounts, Raven seemed full of life.
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[That, and it would have turned into a game of twenty questions because he wouldn't have wanted to leave well enough alone.]
Either way, what I did was a physiological success. Psychological, far less so. "Raven" is a facade he constructed to infiltrate the guild union for me. He acted like someone else entirely around me, and I had to build that out of nothing.
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I dearly wish I had been mistaken about the notion of 'not coming back themselves' when I was merely speculating earlier.